Strap yourselves in, friends. It’s time for a deep, honest, pour-my-thoughts-out-for-all-the-world-to-see kind of post.
Over the last little while, I’ve been reflecting on how this year is playing out relative to my plans for it back in January. When I shared my 2018 intentions, moving to LA wasn’t one that was seriously on the cards. It was in my mind, but the realist in me knew it was a long shot – maybe a ‘some day‘, but probably not a ‘this year’. Isn’t it funny how sometimes life takes turns that you don’t anticipate, and how quickly those turns happen?
Last Monday night as I walked home from work, I started to brainstorm as many new ideas for upcoming blog posts as I could. This is something I regularly do every couple of months. There’s a note on my phone that I use to track all these random ideas, many of which have turned into blog posts, and many of which have been on the list for several months. This time around, I came up with about 10 new thought starters around nutrition, goal setting, personal development, and general holistic wellness.
Then, on Tuesday morning as I was on my way home from the gym, I began brainstorming new recipes. I added loads to my list, and now it’s just a matter of deciding which ones to make first. One thing is for sure: It’s going to be a delicious summer! But while cooking gorgeous new food always excites me and I love that feeling of getting creative juices flowing, I also noticed an underlying feeling of stress. When I dug into it a little deeper, the first place my mind went was to not yet having my usual kitchen gadgets, plates, knives and other utensils to cook with. (I’m not eating out of containers, don’t worry. I do have bowls and cutlery – they’re just not the kind I usually do blog photography with.) But obviously this is a very temporary problem that could be fixed with money, and I could have easily gone out and bought what I needed. So I knew there had to be other things contributing to my anxiety.
The pondering carried on while I was in the shower (often a place where I get my most brilliant ideas) and while I blow dried by hair. What was causing me to feel unsettled and on-edge? Obviously getting used to a very new routine, meeting a whole bunch of new people and starting a new job isn’t something anyone does every day, so I knew that was most definitely playing a part. Maybe I just needed to give myself a little more TLC and have some self compassion. But was there something physically missing in my apartment that would make me feel more at ease? Something I could have in a single click by logging into Amazon Prime that would take the discomfort away?
As much as I love some good retail therapy, I’ve learned that adding more stuff isn’t always the answer. In fact, I think more stuff is often at the root of our problems! Sure it might satisfy a need temporarily, but during the purge of belongings that I did while packing, it became very clear that some of what I was giving away was originally purchased to suppress uncomfortable feelings. I knew it wouldn’t work in this case, so then I started thinking about what I could take away to make things more simple. It struck me, and the more I thought, the more it became a “well, duh” decision that felt more and more right by the second. You might already see where I’m going with this, and if not, I’ll cut to the chase.
I’m going to take a break from blogging for the month of July.
Like many ‘big decisions’ I’ve announced, it might not sound like anything super earth-shattering. If you watch the news for 5 minutes it becomes very clear that there are much more important things happening in the world, and all my mental gymnastics around this decision are trivial in comparison. But for someone whose blog has been a part of a daily routine for 8 years, it feels pretty big to me.
I started this as a hobby and because I really love food, nutrition, wellness, and sharing all of those things with you guys. At the same time (those of you who are bloggers can surely attest), there are a LOT of hours involved. From developing and making recipes and learning photography, to editing photos, writing posts, optimizing for SEO, social media, email marketing, branding, engaging, technical troubleshooting, managing business finances and all the rest of it – it’s kinda like being a Jack or Jane of all trades, all the time. The biz of blogging is evolving every day and continues to fascinate me. For the next month though, I really think I need to temporarily (I repeat, temporarily!) turn down the volume of the always-on voice in my head that constantly narrates life into blog posts.
This will be the longest amount of time that I’ll go without publishing, and I won’t lie, it feels weird already! But the more I experience life in my late 20s, the more I’m learning the value of listening to intuition. I’ve never made a transition quite as big as this move to California. I would hate to look back to see that I was so heads down in trying to uphold my blogging routine just for the sake of it, that I didn’t take the time to fully experience and explore. Summer is the perfect time for all of us to be outside and offline, and it wouldn’t feel right to tell you guys to unplug if I wasn’t practicing what I preached.
When it comes to values, self evolution is one that’s really important to me. Evolving as individuals is what makes our lives feel fulfilling and purposeful. The first half of 2018 has undoubtedly been quite the rollercoaster. Having landed in such a wonderful place that I’d previously only dreamed about, I really feel that pressing pause on the blog for a month is the right thing to do.
I’ll be spending my time not only establishing my new life here, but also thinking about the direction Eat Spin Run Repeat will take in the future. I’m craving afternoons of playtime in my kitchen, creating delicious art with fresh ingredients from the many farmers markets around LA. I’m also so excited about exploring the amazing restaurants, hiking trails and neighbourhoods in this beautiful city, and returning to tell you all about it.
Providing education, helpful how-to’s, vibrant recipes and overall inspiration that helps you guys live into your visions is what I’m most passionate about. It’s been this way from the start, and it’s time to zoom out and think about how to do it in a truly impactful way.
But this isn’t just about me.
I debated how best to share these thoughts, and in the end decided that having you read them here might provide some powerful thought starters. I’m certainly not the only one experiencing big life changes.
You could be finding yourself just as entrenched in your own routines, and maybe it’s been a while since you last thought about how effectively those habits are serving you. Perhaps you’ve been heads-down in the details of your every day life for so long, and zooming out on the bigger picture could help you see new opportunities for growth. Or, maybe you’ll see what I saw, which was the need to take something off my plate for a while in order to fully experience a new season of life and gain some new inspiration. Whatever it is, I hope I’ve got those little personal development wheels turning in your head today!
So to finish, I want to say thank you in advance for reading all this. Thank you for having patience and understanding my perspective. Throughout this mini blogging sabbatical you’ll still find me over on Instagram, and I can’t wait to connect with you guys there. I hope you’re as excited as I am for all the great things to come. In the meantime, go run through a sprinkler, lie on the grass, splash around in the ocean and see where a dirt trail takes you. I’ll be out doing the same, and I’ll see ya back here in August!